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When our search for The One leads us to ourselves

I always believed that separation and silence are an essential part of the Twin flame journey. There is something undeniably sweet about going through all the pain, questioning and confusion, then through the silence meeting them entirely at soul level and knowing from the depths of our Being that we are ONE. There is no peace quite like it.

Even in the silence, twins share an unbreakable bond. There is a shared inner heart space, where both can return for nourishment and connection. For me personally, the silence is where I find my inspiration: my musings become poems, blog posts and letters to him that help me heal and gain clarity – and for these, I am thankful.

Yet the journey to find inner peace is long. Not being able to ask why, to gain closure, to express regret, love and understanding is so excruciating. The grief is immense.

In all our 18 years in this connection, he has never blocked me or told me to be anything other than myself. I have always felt immense love, respect and admiration from him. This is what makes it SO HARD to understand how he can so suddenly flip from open, receptive and loving, to closed off and cold. Sometimes it is the very act of being myself that triggers his silence. Sometimes my words, or perhaps a pertinent question I asked, floods him with overwhelming nostalgia, feelings and emotions, causing him to withdraw into silence. As he himself explained, this has been due to not being able to find adequate words to respond to me, not trusting it, fearing my expectations or the consequences of opening up, for having loyalties elsewhere and for simply not feeling ready for the deep conversations that might take place.

Last time he fell into silence was in late 2015, after an intense 18 months spent reconnecting. Most of the blog posts here from the 2014-2015 period pertain to that time. Apart from the occasional happy birthday or happy Eid, I have let him be. Nonetheless, these past few weeks, he has been increasingly at the forefront of my thoughts. For the first time in a very long time, he appeared in my dreams. The timing of my return has a lot to do with this.

And just like that, in a possible freak flow from the ethos, after five years of silence, we’re back in contact… and It feels like he’s never been away. We spoke on the phone for the first time in 11 years. Isn’t it strange how the laws of physics somehow don’t apply to these kinds of connections? My cell phone battery stayed at 7% for the entire first hour of our call, without draining the battery at all. What sorcery is that? 🙂 It NEVER happens!

He immediately apologised for his absence and admitted that none of his reasons justified his total silence.  He reassured me that regardless, he had wanted to reach out to me a “million times”. I did the maths and that’s basically 548 times a day, which is pretty much how many times I’ve wanted to reach out to him! He told me that I had been in his “mind, heart, thoughts and prayers” all the time. As much as I am happy he said it, I wish I’d never had to hear it … because hearing it again stings.

This is actually a surprisingly difficult post to write.. You see, I understood a long time ago that he was not mine to keep; and that this was a different kind of love and affection which was always to be returned to God – elevated, through Service. So many times I have surrendered and let go of the “earthly” him, choosing to concentrate on loving that which is eternal in him and calls me “home”; all the while looking forward to a time and a space – perhaps in another life or dimension – where we could be around each other again.

I have done SO MUCH work to get to this point. Yet I am still human. One side of me craves only spiritual and emotional growth from our interactions. But growth necessitates purging, triggering and questioning – something that is not compatible with what the other side of me wants: my best friend. I don’t want to trigger him or overwhelm him! Why can’t the two parts meet in the middle?

So far, in our conversations, we’re really only skimming the surface and I do believe it’s deliberate. Maybe he doesn’t want to crash and burn like we did at our most recent attempt, either? Last time we dove in deep from the start; this time it’s light but there’s an elephant in the room that we don’t know how to approach.

On top of it all, it is really difficult not to want to talk to him all the time. He is simply never far from my thoughts. I don’t know where the boundaries are, unless he sets them – something he has always refused to do. Yet in trying to set my own boundaries, I feel I come across as unauthentic, unfeeling and superficial. I wonder if he feels the same way? Superficial and light is just not the way we are wired.

The Universe is telling me to surrender, surrender, surrender. I must trust that there is a  higher purpose. Simultaneously, I cannot help but think that the open communication is a trap the Universe wants me to fall into. I feel like every time we’re brought together, there’s always a test. When he reassured me just now that he is always there for me, that I can contact him anytime and that it is always a pleasure, I also know there are fears and forces that affect him that can cause him to act the complete opposite. In so many ways, those are “just words” that may or may not be true.

During the time of our most recent re-connection in 2015, he himself said he would be testing me – what for, I have no idea. Nevertheless, I figured from his long subsequent absence that I must have failed…  and I don’t even know why. Then, how do I stop myself from failing him again? Or did I in fact pass the test but it was him that failed me by not stepping forward?

The truth that I don’t want to admit, to him or myself, is that my heart is still somewhere on the firing line.

I had no idea that all this yet-to-be-healed crap would pour out the minute I got my wish. I clearly have some work and releasing to do. That long overdue heart-to-heart he’s been promising me since 2005 may well be what gets sacrificed on the altar of our friendship. Giving up on ever obtaining answers to my million questions may be the price I pay to keep him in my life – at least for now. But I wonder, is there such a thing as a clean slate for Twin flames?

Now, before I start bargaining with the universe, I want to say how grateful and blessed I feel for this moment. Regardless of labels or outcomes, our Love and Friendship are beautiful. Thank you to the invisible forces that allowed this to happen. Long may it last! Many things my Twin told me on the phone actually confirmed to me that the Universe does speak to him about me. For example, when I told him that I’d been thinking about relocating to back to my home country, he indicated that he didn’t want me to go, saying, “I know we haven’t seen each other for so long and I have no right to say this, but I have always felt a comfort in knowing you are here“. I didn’t say anything… But I have ALWAYS felt that too. Years ago, I left Paris very soon after he did and ended up, unbeknown to me, following him here to England. This is where I have been all these years. Him still having a base here has been a factor in me remaining here. Like he said, there is a comfort in it. It was amazing to hear him say it.

Two days after we spoke on the phone, I was sat in my garden, feeling the sun on my face and fresh grass between my toes, deep in prayer. I asked the Universe to guide me. That same second my phone pinged. I checked my phone and the title of the email that had come in was “TWINNING IN WINNING”. It was a marketing email from a British clothes retailer, full of pictures of actual twins, which read, “Twinning is winning. Loved by You – this week you’ve embraced that matchy, matchy magic!”

And the timing of the email: 11:11.

I couldn’t make this up, even if I tried. This is some kinda magic alright!

Twinning is winning

 

 

The spouse has a very specific role to play in the meeting of the Twin flames, whether they know of their involvement in this “love triangle” or not.

Our natural human instinct is to resist such an idea and feel resentful at having been brought into this situation. After all, this is supposed to be your happily ever after! Nonetheless, do not dismiss the spouse as an “anomaly” in the otherwise “perfect” love story between you and your Twin flame. Likely, you will be dealing with their presence in both your lives for many years to come.

If you ever wonder whether it’s the spouse’s fault that they are not with us, the answer is; no, not at all. If our Twin flame really wanted to leave, nothing would stop them. There are many reasons why twin flames choose to remain married even after encountering their counterpart. We may feel resentful towards their girlfriend/ partner/spouse and suspect all sort of fear-based tactics to keep them from moving on but often the reasons behind the decision originate from the twin flame’s own psyche, rather than the act of being held hostage by the spouse.

For those who stay, the conflict is always palpable. There will be many times of self-doubt – doubts they may even share with you. They will approach you, only to run back – over and over. Years ago, I likened my twin to a lost puppy who always eventually ran back home with his tail between his legs (not an attractive look for a grown man). When this happens, no matter how much we plead for integrity, for clarity, for truth – all we get is projections, avoidance and hurt. He may tell you how “happily married” he is and how much he is looking forward to spending the rest of his life with his spouse – in pretty much the same breath as confessing his undying soul love for you. Total Mind Fuck 101 if you ask me.

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The learning curve as a “third wheel” is steep for the Twin flame in love. It takes you on an inner journey which eventually allows you to find peace with the situation. Your love for them will be the signpost on your road towards wholeness. You discover that all the tools and knowledge needed to deal with the situation are already within you. Although the love will always feel just as strong, if not more, the emotional attachment to a certain type of relationship will subside and give place to a more balanced desire to remain in each other’s lives without rushed decisions or ultimatums. Your spiritual and emotional development will push you to expand your understanding of all the emotional, psychological and mental issues that keep people stuck in situations that no longer serve them.  You will actually start to feel compassionate towards your Twin flame and his spouse – and perhaps even examine your own marriage for what the right course of action is for you, regardless of whether your twin chooses to act or not.

Consider this: what if, somewhere in all of this, are lessons and growth to actually benefit your connection and to grow the mutual love between you and your twin? Here are some of the deeper reasons why your twin flame has chosen to stay – and how to turn them into stepping stones on the journey of self discovery and spiritual growth.

  1. The spouse validates how he sees himself

Have you ever driven yourself crazy questioning why if your Twin flame loves you so much they still choose to remain in a codependent marriage? It is important to understand that every relationship, no matter how dysfunctional, serves to support our own self-perception. Often the ego has decided to protect the “true self” by hiding it behind a number of socially construct personas; the charismatic Citizen of the World, the Good Christian, the Happily Married Man, the Long-Suffering Wife. These constructs of the ego help reinforce how they see themselves: as a victim, a “caretaker”, a person in need of constant validation – or a “shithead”, like my twin flame once called himself.

The thing about being a shithead is that it gives you permission to behave like one. The cheating, the heart breaking – it’s all justified if you’re a shithead. Dare to question it and you get blamed for having “expectations” and not seeing them for the “real” person they are. Is it any wonder then that such a person would find it near impossible to trust the unconditional love you claim to feel for them? Instead of a dream come true, it will seem like a trick, and instead of convincing them of your genuine feelings, you will in fact be arousing suspicion in them. Rather than feeling excited at the prospect of someone loving them for their true self, they are convinced all you would find is disappointment.

Instead of trying to make them see it, understand the importance of self-love. You may love and accept your Twin in equal measure for both their light and darkness, their goodness and their imperfections. It is however not until they themselves recognise the same that they become receptive to such love. Until then, they will feel much more at ease with someone who reminds them daily of just how imperfect they are rather than someone who sees perfection in them. Although we are naturally inclined to feel sorry for such a person, they often play an active role in keeping things as they are through mutually reinforced behaviours. They may be scared to step up – afraid of abandonment, or of rejection. Unfortunately, many are simply not ready for a union of equals, a union of transparency – and prefer relationships with intense ups and downs but none of the depth.

  1. They are entangled energetically

Sometimes the soul knows something we are not ready to accept; that there are other energetic ties which stand in the way of reunion. This applies both ways – whether it is you who is married, or them. Until the existing relationships dissolve naturally the twin will continue to run from you. This other energy will be felt through the spiritual cords which bind the Twin flames, so even if you lie to them or lead them to believe your single/available their soul still knows the truth and they will behave accordingly.

The push-pull and hot-cold behaviors are caused by the internal struggle between the heart and the soul. The heart wants union yet the soul keeps them from actually taking the steps required. Someone in another blog described this beautifully: the heart doesn’t want to respect these boundaries, yet the soul keeps them from actually crossing the line. Oftentimes this gives us the impression of being “lead on” where in fact it’s only their heart showing you the truth while their soul is holding them from fully expressing it.

Instead, accept your relationship as it is. Love him or her ‘no strings attached’, without pushing for more. This means, not to compromise your or their integrity by ‘cheating’ or deliberately trying to break up their marriage, but rather leaving it to the Twin flame and their spouse to work out their own issues in their time and way. In the meantime, your genuine love and reverence for your Twin flame will keep you from acting out; no bonafide twin flame would ever want to hurt or interfere with the marriage of the one they love. Your inner guidance will tell you this.

  1. The spouse is helping him work through his karma / life lessons

Since Twin Flames are here to accelerate their evolutionary growth, it makes sense that they would catapult each other forward when there is stagnation in their lives. The arrival of our Twin flame often exposes all the inner work that lies ahead of us. While we work on ourselves, inevitably they will be doing the same. Oftentimes, the purpose of the spouse is to assist them in their inner/karmic work. If the marriage is left abruptly because of the twin flame, the necessary lessons will not be learnt and the person is more likely to either return to the marriage or pursue another relationship in order to finish the task.

Instead, realize that we all have certain things we came here to do. Some of these things must take priority over our desire to be with our twin. The Twin flame is not an excuse to avoid work we came here to do, but rather a catalyst which should push us to do just that. You are all part of a bigger picture, where all the different parts of the puzzle fit and interact together in various ways.

  1. The spouse fits the old template and patterns

Very often, a married twin flame will have emotionally checked out of the marriage long before meeting their counterpart. This may however not stop them from staying since they often also hold deep rooted beliefs, such as that marriage lasts forever (cue my twin who mused about him and his wife being like a pair of swans, mated for life). They may believe divorce is bad and that as much as they love you, you are leading them down the wrong path.

Society lays a heavy expectation on those who marry to sign up for LIFE.  There will in most cases be support for the marriage to continue from friends and family around, regardless of what has gone on, regardless of the happiness of everyone involved.

The dilemma of the married Twin flame is not an easy one. The whole idea of having to stay married out of obligation or responsibility is becoming obsolete and is no longer serving anyone – not even the spouse that the married twin flame will be trying to “protect”. So many marriages nowadays fall into the “Not bad enough to leave, but not good enough to fulfil you” category. Somehow infidelity has become more acceptable than drawing a line and starting over.

Instead, remember that you are not here to step into that old template and make it all perfect for them. That is a romantic fantasy which will only leave you disillusioned and confused. Bringing a spiritual CONNECTION (“We are each the masters of our happiness”) to the level of an old paradigm marriage (“It is your job to make me happy”) cannot work. This pattern is a much lower vibrational template which simply cannot accommodate the twin flame dynamic… Very often, we mistakenly assume that just because our Twin flame is not hurrying to marry us that they do not love us – whereas often the truth is that they cannot engage for that very reason. As a spouse, within the kind of marriage they have come to know, they may not have much to offer. A Twin flame is a FRIEND OF OUR SOUL (not our ego) and so no matter how many times we attempt to fit the dynamic into the familiar relationship patterns, we always end up flat on our face. Our Twin flame cannot enable our old patterns – and vice versa… It’s not how the connection is wired.

  1. He does not wish to rock the boat

What if your twin’s heart is with both you and the spouse? What if loving one person does not mean cancelling out the love for another? I know there are many who feel this way. That no matter how amazing the twin flame love feels, it is not worth leaving our spouse for.

If such is the case, do not ever envy what your Twin flame has with their spouse or life partner. Respect their existing relationship and seek not to deliberately interfere with it. True Twin flames do not look to bind each other down – this is not about ownership.  Always remember that nothing or no one can replace the connection between you. You are, always were and always will be part of each other in a way that should never render either one of you insecure. It is what it is.

Instead, offer something new and different. What you really want is more of what you already have. You need to build it together, to suit you both. You are here to call your twin to become more aware of the patterns which limit their growth and block their ascension; not as person constantly pointing fingers at their dysfunction BUT as someone who stands in the light of consciousness and unconditional (and sometimes tough) love, offering something completely NEW and healthy. As their Twin flame, sooner or later you become a benchmark for them to compare all other relationships against. Make sure that when this time comes, this standard is one of love, acceptance, patience and closeness to Source – not one of jumping from one broken pattern to another.

In conclusion, I understand none of this is easy. It requires WORK – blood, sweat and tears, or perhaps a very long hibernation… (Sleeping Beauty was onto something, sleeping through it all!). In my experience, the Twin flame union only happens once the limiting patterns are gone and we have learnt to love ourselves fully; not as a rescuer or someone needing to be rescued, but as a sovereign, equal mate to the person who matches our vibration, awakens us and reminds us of home.

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If you must love her,

then be it for His sake only.

For the reflection of His light in her eyes

For the promise of lazy days in Paradise.

For a union that fulfils half your deen

For His reasons, unknown and unseen

Be it for His delight

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If you must love her,

then be it for His sake only.

For seeing yourself mirrored in her soul

For finally making that leap from the old

For surrendering to His plan without question

For knowing She’ll guide you into salvation

Be it for His delight

*

If you must love her,

then be it for His sake only.

For the sake of two souls perfectly aligned

For the union of heart and mind

For the call Home that you always felt

To that place where long ago together you dwelt

Be it for His delight

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And….

If I must love you,

then be it for His sake only.

For the sake of a closeness I cannot forget

For knowing I loved you long before we met

For a whispered promise I barely recall

For placing the Path above it all

Be it for His delight

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If I must love you,

then be it for His sake only.

For the sake of a pleasure that blends into pain

For all these words written in vain

For the longing for Home and for hearing His call

For discovering my Self underneath it all

Be it for his delight

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If I must love you,

then be it for His sake only.

For the sake of Love which floods my heart

Where distance nor time can keep us apart

For the Day of Judgement where I shan’t be afraid

When my Love for you places me in His Shade

Be it for His delight.

Jonna 29/05/2020

Sometimes this connection can truly feel like a life sentence – or worse, an irreversible curse.

I first met my twin 18 years ago. I was 25, he was 31. We recognised each other instantly – and within days became lovers.

What followed was the most amazing summer of my life. I couldn’t help but fall for this most magical being to ever walk this earth. An eternal love which had always been there revealed itself to me in our connection. A spark of God dwelled in his eyes. He was unlike anyone I had ever met. He unassumingly rocked my world from here to Andromeda – and in the process left me forever changed. I knew 100% that no one could ever take away what we had – and I was right. But not in a million years could I ever have imagined having to live my life without him.

Almost two decades have flown by since that summer. The connection has had its ups and downs; and so has our human relationship. As I sit here writing this, it has been a good 3.5 years since I last heard from him. Other than wishing him a happy Eid, or sometimes a happy birthday, I have let him be, too. Yet not a day goes by that I don’t feel him close to me, in my heart space; as an energy, as a reflection, inside my very being. I have had to make my peace with his constant ethereal presence in my life.

I realise that it has been three years since I last posted anything on here. It was honestly not my intention to stay away so long. Thank you to all those who during this time wrote to me and asked me how I am. Sorry for not being able to respond to you all. I hope you are all well and keeping safe during the current Covid-19 pandemic.

Some of you may know that during my silence I went through a horrendous divorce and a custody battle which dragged on for several years. This absolutely drained me, affecting my finances, my health and my energy. Nonetheless, this was not the reason I initially stopped writing. Some assumed I withdrew because of the pain of being without my twin. No. Some assumed I stopped posting because I finally reunited with my twin. Again, no.

This is what really happened. Those of you who were following my blog in the 2015-2016 time period may recall that after many years of quasi silence, my twin and I found ourselves magically and undeniably drawn together that year. Somehow, even with no contact, we had both gone through similar experiences in order to reach the same conclusions. In there, was the question of us – and perhaps even the opportunity to fulfil the divine mandate which has always existed on our lives – union. God has sent you to me and vice versa, he said at the time, to challenge us, to expand us and guide us to his path, to his truth, to our eternal life & salvation, to peace and serenity.

What followed were months of deep discussions, confessions, and all the validation I could ever have wished for. We both had our share of fears, doubts and dilemmas to deal with – he was still married and used this to keep me at a distance whenever he felt like it. This suited me fine: I did not want him prying into my fractured marriage either. I was in the process of leaving my husband but did not want my twin to know because I did not want him to think that I was somehow doing it for him. In fact, the prospect of finally being able to just concentrate on our friendship felt like the best thing that could happen at the time. 

After a period of a year or so, during which I even innocently proposed marriage to him (don’t ask!), he invited me to stay with him at his house whilst his wife was abroad. He had told me on several occasions that he wished to have a heart to heart with me; to reveal certain things to me. He was better at communicating face to face, he said. Although the idea of being in his physical presence terrified me, I was determined to put my fears aside and see him again. He had impressed upon me that we could not and should not have a sexual relationship as long as he was still married – and he intended to stay so. This put me at ease. Giving myself to him and then down the line being friend-zoned and rejected for supposedly having “expectations” was still fresh in my mind. Knowing that he was determined not to initiate any hanky panky made me feel safe. 

I sensed a certain maturity and openness in him that I had not known before. Maybe he finally realised that our friendship had some other potential beyond just being fuck buddies? This made me feel safe. If I could trust him to uphold his part of the deal, then I could let go of the “what ifs” and guard my heart in the process. Looking back, it feels crazy that I actually thought I could protect myself against getting hurt. But at the time, he reassured me that I was “more than safe” with him. I was ecstatic, thinking that we could actually be friends and that I could, finally after all these years, have him in my life. 

My joy was short lived. Soon, I could see us sliding into dangerous territory. Among all the spiritual talk was flirting – among other things he reminisced about kissing me in great detail, asked me what I intended to “do to him” when we met, joked about tying me down and never letting me go etc. As much as it felt nice and innocent, the prospect of something happening made me feel exposed again. Seeking to protect myself and without intending to put him on the spot or to accuse him of anything, I questioned how in his head he could justify his flirting with me alongside his loyalty to his wife. And so, without realising, I opened that same old can of worms that has been plaguing us since 2002. 

He defended himself, saying it was “harmless flirtation” and he didn’t see how that could possibly indicate that he was somehow being disloyal towards his wife. I was, according to him, overreacting. This really grated on me since surely he knew how much I love him. We have a history together, we’ve shared bodily fluids for God’s sake and he himself only recently revealed to me the “overwhelming feelings and emotions” he struggled with upon hearing from me – yet somehow I was the one reading too much into it all. Did my feelings not matter? Why was he even flirting with me? I wanted to bring him closer to God, not further away. What happened to me being safe with him? The conversation turned sour from thereon. We are both shocked at how fast it all went downhill. “What happened?” he asked. 

It didn’t take long for him to have doubts about our meeting. As you can guess, we ended up not meeting. He cancelled on me a few days before. I can’t say I hadn’t anticipated it. I simply felt numb. Did he not trust himself, or was he punishing me? I may never know.. but I know I would never have crossed the boundaries he set. He had nothing to fear – only his own self. Soon thereafter he stopped communicating altogether. 

For the longest time, I could’t wrap my mind around what had happened. I didn’t know where to start. Trying to make sense of it made no sense at all. The spiritual growth we shared, the synchronicities, the parallel paths; there was so much there to explore. Why couldn’t we do this as friends? Hadn’t we learnt anything? It took me a while to unravel it all but I eventually figured that the key to us ever being part of each others’ lives is AUTHENTICITY. Whenever one of us holds anything back, or attempts to hide something, or to box our connection, this brings about conflict. Not because we seek it, but because we are equipped with internal bullshit detectors. This is also where the weight of “expectations” comes into play; only those expectations are not from the twin but from the higher self. The connection demands 100% authenticity. 

So here I am still, serving my twin flame life sentence. Day 6,594 of eternity. I won’t be going anywhere anytime soon.

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As humanity evolves and ascends into a higher vibration, relationships are changing too. The expansion of consciousness brings with it a broader understanding of the different ways we relate to and connect with each other.  As we move into the 4th and 5th dimensions, the old paradigm relationships of the 3D consciousness are crumbling, causing many to question the many inherited symbolic systems which govern our lives today.

One of the systems in need of being redefined during this time of rapid spiritual evolution is the old stereotypical concept of marriage. Marriage today has become a contract, an institution of society, and the couple a property of that society. Not so long ago, people still married for the sole purpose of ensuring their physical survival or to obtain an heir, and although people still marry for external reasons (money, family, social status etc.), many now enter into marriage in order to pursue emotional fulfillment and spiritual growth. But if marriage is the ideal platform for this then why are so many marriages failing? The thing about spiritual growth is, it can make us incompatible with someone we used to be in harmony with. Since spiritual growth is accelerating and humanity awakening, more and more people are working through their karmic lessons and “outgrowing” their marriages faster than ever before. As such, marriage as it exists today here on Earth is not meant to last forever – but only until the full potential for growth has been reached which often isn’t “until death do us part”.

Underlying the disintegration of marriage is the spiritual amnesia we all suffer from to varying degrees. Humanity has forgotten it’s true nature and with it, the true meaning of marriage. Marriage as God intended is a sacred union of two souls, created for each other, with each other. Unfortunately very few marriages today are founded upon the resonance of souls – let alone two people sharing the same soul. This is where we as Twin flames step in. We are the way showers, here to bring a new template onto this Planet; one where true love is that of the soul and where our love for our partner mirrors our relationship with our Self and God to the most intimate degree, allowing for endless spiritual and emotional growth and discovery. This is not the template of a relationship but of a union which awakens the divine sparkle within us and draws our divine counterpart to us, reminding us of the eternal life which awaits us once our shared mission here on Earth is complete.

Since consciousness is the basis of all reality, any shift in consciousness changes every aspect of our reality. Meeting our Twin flame is definitely such a shift; they catalyze our spiritual awakening and cause total upheaval in every area of our lives. It only takes one second, one moment for the memories of real, unbridled love to come rushing back. These feelings originate in the soul and spread like fire to the rest of the body. They push us onto a guest for a more authentic life; helping us see beyond the illusions. We find ourselves questioning everything; not only who we are and what we are doing, but also the decisions we’ve made in the past, including whether and whom to marry.

Meeting our Twin flame when already married is truly a test of fire – just like our soul intended it. The omnipotent, cellular level awakening we experience causes our vibration, awareness and energy to immediately jump up a notch – or a dozen – making us acutely aware of the energetic suppression we’ve been living under. The soul is adamant: it wants resonance, it wants freedom, it wants union – and it wants it NOW.

The souls magnetize each other and we truly feel the magical Universe at play through the synchronicities and signs that surround us. Maybe like many others it is being made clear to us, from within, that it is time to leave our marriage – not because of the promise of a blissful Union but because our own soul demands it. The soul does not make mistakes. It knows the path it wants to follow.

Many bolt out of existing relationships upon meeting their Twin flame since they can no longer find alignment with the old. The call to return to our original state of Oneness is so intoxicating, and the otherworldly soul connection to the Twin flame felt so strongly that staying in the old relationship becomes unbearable. Every second, every minute we are aware of the pressure upon us to follow the call to be who we really are, at the deepest level within us.

Unfortunately as the magnetic pull reverses signaling the start of the journey within, many find themselves returning to these old relationships – not because we fell out of love with our Twin flame but because all the hurt and disappointment we caused our partner and the other important people in our lives finally catches up with us. Subconsciously we know there is still unfinished business (karma) to work through. We retreat into the “safety” of our old paradigm marriage, where we hide and try to make sense of things, protected by the society which demands we do the “right thing” and remain with the person whom we promised our life.

This pattern is a sign of old energy that needs resolving. It is resistance to our own evolution. There is no right or wrong way here – just more work to do and lessons to learn. Ironically, once the dust settles, we may be surprised to find that the marriage seems better in many ways; our spouse may be awakening too, there may be less conflict, and things generally seem to flow better. Of course, this is not because the spouse changed but because we changed, our perception changed – and in turn it affected the whole relationship dynamic. And even though we realize we can never quite go back to the way things used to be, we feel relieved being able to carry on in a marriage where we feel safe and secure but which also does not require us to “invest” ourselves like the Twin flame union does.

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Yet as the time goes by… We still find ourselves thinking about this wondrous person who flipped our world upside down, wondering what went wrong and why they could not be a part of our life. They are still the first person we want to run to with news of our greatest joys and deepest sorrows – and the one whose energy we seek when we want to calm our spirit. We may feel their heartbeat inside our own, or pain in our heart when they intimately give themselves to someone else. We may hear them speak to us and feel the warmth of their presence in the heart chakra. The impact of the Twin flame on the energetic body simply cannot be undone or permanently ignored.

This is where the two paths separate. For some, this will be a moment of truth, a recognition of the staying power of this connection; a realization that this person will always be a part of their being, whether they like it or not. These people will do their best to find a way to include the Twin flame in their life, for the benefit of everyone involved. Rather than hide the connection, they may even come out to their spouse about it. For them it may not feel right to leave just yet; maybe there are children to consider, or  simply more growth to be done.

Then there are those who miss their Twin flame just as much but who are determined to keep this person away from their marriage; not because they worry about that person crossing any lines but because they do not trust themselves not to. The connection is still there, alive and kicking, but suppressed underneath feelings of guilt, duty and responsibility towards the spouse. Even if they do want to reach out, they cannot find the words, frustrated at not being able to express their true heart – or for fear of opening the can of worms that they perceive this connection to be. They may feel confident that they are doing the right thing, yet they still feel stuck. They may not even realize this has anything to do with the Twin flame, but they find themselves spending more and more time away from home. Sex and intimacy become a struggle. Health problems crop up; abdominal pains, sciatica, headaches, pain in the legs, feet and lower back – all just a reflection of how stuck they feel emotionally. Since their creativity up and left with the Twin flame they find themselves moving completely into their head space – after all, the Twin flame now occupies the heart space they refuse to visit.

To occupy their mind they throw themselves into religion, politics, work, studies; into anything else that they can obsess over and fill their mind space with. Deep within they know they really should be honest with everyone and end the marriage for that one true chance at happiness – yet what is holding them back is that long shared history, no matter how unhappy or unfulfilling. They feel that they owe it to their spouse to “stick it out”; that they could not handle the guilt of breaking their heart. Maybe they already tried and instead of compassion and reverence received emotional outbursts, suicide threats and more. They may feel like the worst person in the world, a “shithead”, just for feeling this love within… On top of everything, they know they have let their Twin flame down. They haven’t forgotten their promise of a physical Union, made eons ago and reaffirmed in each incarnation. Deep within they have not given up on that promise; they are just postponing it… but to delay Union is a dangerous game that easily traps us for a lifetime.

Of course by now both these individuals realize that they will always carry a part of their Twin flame within; as an energy, a reflection and a presence, as an integral part of who they are. By deliberately disconnecting from that which is within, a divide now exists within their very own being. It dawns on them that the spouse will never be able to return that vibration of unconditional love to the same degree that the Twin flame could. No matter how much they may try, it will never be as nourishing, as deep, as intimate, as spiritual, as infused in God. Time and time again, the dilemma will continue to present itself: to keep the status quo and die a slow spiritual death only ever giving a part of yourself to the spouse – or to divorce and finally be fully who you are, with or without the Twin flame?

Making the decision to move on is a very difficult one. Feelings of confusion, guilt, hurt, betrayal, loss and emptiness will be daily companions throughout the process. The best advice I can give anyone in this situation is to follow your inner voice and look to the universe – not your Twin – for guidance and direction. Ask the Universe for smooth transitions and an outcome for the highest good of all. Also know that meeting your Twin flame does not always equal “happily ever after”. Union is a choice you both must make. You must understand this: there are no guarantees. It is possible in the course of a lifetime to meet many people of similar vibration or with whom you share a deep spiritual bond due to past life experiences – this does not always mean they are your Twin flame, nor does it necessarily translate into a compatible lifelong romantic relationship.

Nevertheless, beyond all the questions and moral dilemmas is the reality of Real Love. Is your Twin flame the One with forever in their eyes? Is it their face that appears before you as you call upon your beloved? Did you always know that you came here to reunite with your one true love? Has your soul confirmed this to you? It is not by mistake that the Twin flame shows up in your reality. You are both being given a chance to embody your highest self here on earth in THIS lifetime.. You are being shown that Union is possible – that it is within your reach. It is already something your soul aspires to. Why settle for anything less? Be brave and ask yourself: is it in the highest good of everyone to put blinders on and persist in a profoundly incompatible marriage, denying yourself and your spouse the chance to find true love; or to trust that small voice inside your heart which tells you to take that leap of faith and to follow the call home?

Real love is forever, it will never leave you. This journey only ever leads to one place: back to each other.

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So many people know the truth of their heart yet fail to follow through. So many choose to stunt their growth by remaining in an unfulfilling marriage rather than to move on to new spiritual paths for fear of the unknown. This is the epidemic that still plagues the Twin flame community. I am not saying that a person should leave their marriage at the first sight of the Twin flame, HOWEVER creating something new requires action and sacrifices and it is here that so many of us fall short. This journey demands we give it all. If we do not take the first step then who will? This is about YOU; about following the path you always believed in.

Divorce is not easy but so many obstacles can be avoided by remaining positive and holding the intention of the highest good for everyone involved. Personally, I cleared a tremendous hurdle on my journey this month. As you may recall I took the leap two years ago to leave my husband (I blogged about it here) for no other reason than to finally be who I am – including allowing the Twin flame energies to flow within me freely. When I told my Twin about it at the time, he mentioned how ironic it was that I seemed to have “gone over the edge” whilst he was still “standing on it“. Two years later he is still on that edge, grasping that can of worms, staring into the cloudy darkness below.

But he was right about one thing: I took that leap and never looked back!

The big news is that my divorce was finalized earlier this month, ironically just days before what should have been my 10th wedding anniversary.

It’s weight off my shoulders like you wouldn’t believe it.

And I can say, hand on heart, that the promise of a physical reunion with my Twin had very little to do with it.

I divorced because I was presented with a choice; me or my marriage. To stay married to a spouse who stopped cherishing me a long time ago, or to divorce for my own soul, sanity and destiny and the path I always knew I was born to follow? The decision was not difficult once I reached surrender and found my wholeness within. Surrender because I could finally allow this pure, transformative, soul-shaking love to flow through me, allowing the path to unfold freely – and finding my wholeness because accepting the truth of union within allowed me to finally love and accept who I am fully. Furthermore, it no longer felt right to me to mix my essence and energy with anyone who does not know, love and match that which is eternal in me – and who is not going to step through the pearly gates with me once this life is over. My soul could want nothing more, nor accept anything less than this. It may sound silly – and it certainly will to those not on this journey – but it is truly what gives me peace and allows me to move deeper into the reality of this love, as well as manage the struggles of every day life without the man that I love.

This is the first time in over 20 years that I have been single. Like many others, I have moved from one long term relationship to another without ever having the time to get to know myself – one on one. I am aware that I join an increasing number of self-realized women who embody their inner Goddess to varying degrees but who are at this moment in time unable to find a man to match their vibration, because the man who once did and who continues to call to their soul is still caught up in a lower vibrational situation. I remain open to meeting my eternal lover in this lifetime if such has been planned for me, whether that person is my Twin flame or someone else. Only God knows. All I know, it was not my husband.

Having said this, I am not waiting for anything or anyone. I simply want my soul to lead me further down this path and to show me just how deeply I can love and what that love feels like when it shines a light upon the still unexplored places still within me.

As for my Twin, I love him, *oh so much* but I also know we are not “meant to be together” right now just because of the Twin flame label. The Universe is all about energy and vibration. I sincerely hope we can meet in that vibration of unconditional love once more within this lifetime – but having said that, I trust that he is exactly where he needs to be in this moment. He is still in alignment with his past, but things are shifting. Until then, I want his 3D persona to be absolutely free of any pressure; so much so that I have kept the status of my marriage to myself.

To all the soul brothers and sisters walking this path with me, I honor you for remembering that the most important relationship you have is with your Self. Please do not lose it to uphold an institution.

Divorce is never easy. I know.

But I trust that there is a greater plan for me. Instead of focusing on the negatives, I ask the Universe to guide me on the path to Union.

I reclaim my life.

I reclaim my path.

I reclaim the Union within.

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This journey can really get you down.

That’s why I always said I would pay a decent amount of money to see some Twin Flame stand-up comedy.

Seriously, I would.

The good news is, I’ve found the next best thing!!!  emorolf2

I am sharing this HILARIOUS video from the very talented Akasha & her friends, aka Twin Flames In Progress because I want YOU to smile today. This wild journey seriously needs a injection of humor. Laugh, hug yourself (or a tree! :)) and be OK with this journey.

You are not alone – and you are not crazy.

For more amazing poetry, articles and videos see http://www.akashatorres.com

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Do you ever get the feeling your Twin Flame speaks to you through music? Maybe a song will suddenly start playing in your mind, or certain songs with a special meaning come on every time you turn the radio on? Maybe you find certain tracks which remind you of them “follow” you; on the radio, TV commercials, public places, random stranger’s ringtone  – you name it, it’s there – to the point of driving you mad. Maybe your Twin Flame actually speaks to you in song lyrics, prompting you to look the song up only to discover it carries a message? Or maybe “your song” randomly starts to play on Spotify the moment you feel the familiar vibration of his energy embrace you?

All of the above are types of telepathy that can occur between Twin flames. Telepathy is undoubtedly one of the most fascinating and popular aspects of the Twin flame connection. Although not exclusively reserved for Twin flames, their vibrational and energetic resonance lends itself easily to this type of communication; after all, the two are expressions of the One Soul.

True telepathy engages our whole being – mind, heart, body and soul – requiring not only the mind to translate the flow of energy into a language which can be understood by the recipient, but also the heart chakra to act as a transmitter of all the emotional and mental information. Many Twin Flames first awaken to the reality of telepathy through the activation and opening of their heart chakra. More than any other part of the energetic body, the heart is the essential thinking, feeling and knowing center of a multi-dimensional being, generating a powerful electrical field 60 times greater and a magnetic field 5,000 times greater than that of the brain. The crown chakra also plays a role, by connecting us to our Higher Self, Universal Consciousness and the Divine realms.

Whether physically present or not, we recognize our Twin Flame by the unique energy that they convey. We may feel a quickening of our heart, sense their presence or smell their fragrance. Sometimes we feel a caress on our hair, cheek, hand etc. We may hear their voice, or perhaps feel their warmth surround us. Telepathy however isn’t just about learning to recognize the moments when the “twin phone” buzzes and we have our Twin on the line; it is about having the ability to LISTEN to the incoming message.

An interesting aspect of Twin Flame telepathy is how Twin Flames use music & songs as telepathic aids in order to share messages & emotions. Although this kind of telepathy often gets dismissed as “wishful thinking”, it is in my opinion one of the best ways Twin flames have to reach each other. It is a particularly wonderful way to connect with a Twin Flame we have yet to meet or to receive loving messages from a Twin Flame in Spirit. It can also add an element of fun to times of separation. Music in itself is a powerful telepathic transmitter: not only is it inherently spiritual but its notes are easily carried by electromagnetic energy. It’s octaves and frequencies act as vibrational conduits of the energy of love connecting the Twins. Best of all, such telepathy requires no special musical talent – only an open heart and a receptive mind.

Music, at its essence, is the sound of spirit. Yet many Twin Flames underestimate the significance of music as a telepathic tool and fail to see the many ways in which it can be used to enhance and solidify the bond between the Twin Flame couple. Personally I believe this is because music carries a lot of emotion – and the emotional body is where Twin flames experience the most blockages. What I mean by this is that when we lack control of our emotional states we will struggle to identify and accept telepathic messages this way due to the added pressure on our emotional body. We will simply not know what is real and what not. Loving messages from our Twin flame then get muddled up in all the emotional garbage of our past which rises to the surface for clearing.

On the other hand, the ability that music has to stir our emotions makes it one of Divine Masculine’s favorite ways of communicating. The emotional pull of music appeals to the masculine soul hiding behind his 3D mask and empowers him to bridge the gap between the inner masculine and feminine energies, creating a better balance within. It also allows the masculine to share feelings, fears and thoughts without coming straight out and saying things that circumstances or fears of rejection do not allow.

The Twin Flame connection is the ideal “test bed” for the evolution of our telepathic ability because the connection naturally drives us within – where all telepathy starts. Music can help open our heart further and make us more receptive to insight. However it is only once we have done enough purging and are able to sit with our emotions without becoming them that we can move beyond the emotional body into the spiritual realms and more easily receive the messages intended for us. Then, our moments of telepathic connection become a little less like this…

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And a little more like this….

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As with everything involving telepathy, it is important to remember that your Twin Flame – just like you – is a multidimensional being. This means that songs are not always consciously being sent by your Twin Flame, although I believe most couples experience a combination of intentional and subconscious musical telepathy. Sometimes it is your Twin’s Higher Self interacting with you – and although his 3D self may be aware of this at some level, it may not be as much as you think. Do not let this dishearten you. Believe in your Twin Flame’s ability to find Union within; to embody his higher self here on earth and to unify his heart and mind. Continue to love him as you see him; as a soul, as his full glorious self. Practice unconditional love without expectations and learn to receive the telepathic messages with an open heart trusting that whatever your Higher Self allows through is for your own benefit – and always in support of your spiritual evolution.

Although telepathy between Twins is instant and happens automatically, music can be a wonderful way to gently push those telepathic experiences to the forefront of your Twin Flame’s conscious mind. Something magical happens when you download a song into your spirit and project it outward through a connected heart space. Such songs become powerful spiritual tools that can stir a soul to consider the true nature of love, connection and Union. Music thus sent forth with truth and intention can easily penetrate through mental barriers and ego.

Start by opening the gateway of telepathic communication by visualizing and feeling the love spiral out of the magnetic vortex of your heart chakra until you feel that familiar quickening of the heart. Choose songs that elevate your Spirit and make your heart fly; songs that will remind them of your time together, or which include a specific message you are trying to convey – perhaps with lyrics that mimic something one of your once said. That way there is no mistaking where the music comes from. Twin flame classics such “Total eclipse of the heart” by Bonnie Tyler are also a wonderful choice; they are cosmic messages of love filled with the kind of vibration that resonates deeply with separated Twin flames.

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I often get asked how to start trusting ourselves when it comes to telepathic messages in general? After all, how do we know that we are not simply crazy and imagining it all? There is no “one size fits all” answer to this I’m afraid. Yes, there are people who have completely dived off the tracks of sanity in the pursuit of the elusive Twin flame. You will find these people spending thousands at the Twin Flame psychics, looking for external confirmation for what is happening WITHIN. If this is you then I would simply say, take a step back. Breathe. Feel around for solid ground. However if YOU in the heart of your hearts KNOW this is your Twin Flame, even when it makes no sense, then trust your intuition. Seek balance within you to get through this.

Knowing that your Twin Flame is sending you telepathic messages through music is like everything else on this journey: it requires faith, inner trust and knowledge of our Self. Learning to trust telepathy is a process – and feeling each other across the distance is an ESSENTIAL part in it. We must fight those inner demons that doubt the truth of the Twin Flame energy INSIDE OUR OWN HEART. After all, a true, lasting reunion with the external twin can never happen without the discovery of the “twin within”, which is the complimentary energy of our twin which forms part of who we are.

Just know that while you work towards these things you are not alone. The Universe will give you signs and synchronicities in order to build that trust and to confirm the existence of such telepathy in order to prepare you for future messages. Spirit may for example give you both the same song – and then allow you to discover it. When this happens, not once or twice but a dozen times, you will start to believe in what is being shown to you.

An example of this from my own life is when I reunited with my Twin after three years separation, pushed by my kundalini awakening and an inner knowing which told me to return to him.

One day as I was out shopping alone in New York, Edith Piaf’s “Milord” started to play in my head. “Allez venez, Milord, Vous asseoir Ă  ma table, Il fait si froid dehors, Ici, c’est confortable...” It was a song I barely knew which made it particularly odd. That night, as I returned to my Twin’s flat and stepped in through the door, I immediately heard he was humming that very song. He confessed the song has been playing in his mind all day and commented on how odd it was, since he hadn’t heard the song in years.

Although the song lyrics did not contain any special message for either one of us, I understand why Spirit chose it. Had it been a well-known song of the moment, it would not have seemed so extraordinary – there would have been a number of places we both could have heard it. But because it was an old, random French song, it acted as a confirmation of just how easily the shared mind picks up stuff. It also gave me the foundation to receive further messages and insights with less skepticism.

Sometimes Spirit gives not just a song but an entire playlist to both Twins. Here in 3D, many twin flames, including males, have playlists that are entirely inspired by the connection and that they listen to in moments of nostalgia. Sometimes Twins then share this music with each other as a test, to see if the other has received it too.

One night during our brief reunion, my Twin Flame put on a playlist he had created of his “favorite songs”. He apologized in advance for how “cheesy” the songs were going to be. He scanned my face nervously for reaction as the first notes started to play. It was Dido’s “White Flag”, followed by “I want to Know What Love is” (Foreigner), “If you’re not the One” (Daniel Bedingfield), “I knew I loved you” (Savage Garden), “Sail away” (David Gray) and many more. Love song after love song, including “our” song “Total Eclipse of the Heart” (Bonnie Tyler), followed.

Although I immediately noticed many of these songs were songs that I also loved, I didn’t think too much of it at the time. My mind was still playing catch-up, trying to make sense of my kundalini awakening, our sudden reunion etc. It was only after I returned home and put on the mixed tape I had created during our separation that one by one I found myself listening to exactly the same songs. I fell to my knees with the realization that all along he had shared the same yearning with me – those songs were intended for me, they were about me, about his feelings for me. His playlist acted as a catalyst – suddenly EVERYTHING made sense to me.

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There are also those times Twin Flames – consciously or subconsciously – drop lyrics and songs into conversation both in 3D and 5D. These lyrics carry messages of love and reassurance for the other Twin and they always help us increase our understanding of our Twin’s feelings and point of view.

After our reunion I was having a highly spiritual reoccurring dream where I stood at the edge of what seemed a tall cliff, peering into the cloudy darkness below, with my Twin Flame’s voice beckoning me to leap. I knew that if I wanted to be with him, if I was ever going to have that chance; that I would have to take that leap. When I finally jumped I found myself carried by what felt like angel wings and landed in the wilderness. My Twin Flame was no where to be seen. Waiting for me was the book of my life. Even though the pages were empty, he had signed the inside cover, confessing his love and asking me not give up on him.

This “edge”, this metaphor for the call to leave the old behind and to leap into the “new” featured heavily in all my channeled writings and poetry  – all of which I shared with my Twin Flame. I was calling him to make that leap too; to join me in our new life, to follow his heart. I was convinced he knew and could remember his promise to join me.

Within days he randomly mentioned David Wilcox’s song “Catch me if I try”, not really relating to anything else other than that I had just discovered the artist and he said this song was the only one he knew. I felt prompted to check the lyrics out and was amazed to realize they related directly to my desire to leap into the new together. It was as if he was speaking to me through the song lyrics.

Go easy on those eyes
I’m about to lose my grip
Go easy on that smile
I’m afraid that I might slip
Lay off on that calling
and tempting me to try
‘cuz I’m so scared of falling
I’ll never learn to fly

Then you say,
Touch me you can reach me

Ah, you can make me want to fly
You make it seem so easy
Catch me if I try

Tempting me to step off of the edge of reason
I thought that I knew better than to start believing
In Love, Love, Love
And if I read you right
We just might want to dance all night

And I have risked a fall before
But not from this height

When you say
Touch me you can reach me
Ah you can make me want to fly
You make it seem so easy

Catch me if I try…

You can listen to the totality of this beautiful song here.

Funnily enough, over the years he has said many things that confirm the message of this song. It is truly how he feels. And he is still standing on that edge, peering into the darkness, afraid to take that leap. Just recently, as I told him I had separated from my husband, he said “How ironic that you seem to have gone over the edge while I am still standing on it“.

The great thing about being Twin Flames is that you understand each other at a deeper level. Your Twin does not need to say “Listen to Africa by Toto, it’s a song that makes me think of you”, but rather they can take a line from that song, drop it into conversation with you – even in 5D – and you still get the message. Unless your Twin Flame actually admits to “lyric dropping”, it can be hard to tell whether they intentionally do this, or whether it is an unintentional act revealing subconscious feelings – a sort of a Twin flame “Freudian slip”. Maybe the message is from their Higher Self – with their 3D failing to make the connection but speaking the words nevertheless, who knows? The closest my Twin Flame ever came to admitting to doing this intentionally was recognizing that we both “love words and the meaning behind them”.

Here are some examples of what I mean by “lyric dropping”.

As my Twin kissed me goodbye after a week spent in New York with him, he told me (with a straight face) “I always want to have you in my radar. It’s gonna take a lot to take me away from you, There’s nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do”. It’s a line straight out of “Toto” by Africa, a song which has an important spiritual meaning for us both. It was also one of the love songs in the playlist he had played for me.

During that same reunion, as he tried to explain what he had felt for me during our initial meeting in Paris, he told me: “Together we could have taken it to the end of the line“. Pretty much a line straight out of “our” song “Total Eclipse of the heart”, which has connected us since our summer together in Paris. It is also the song I use to speak to him in lyrics.

Sometimes Spirit bombards us with musical signs just to get our attention. These sings may include certain songs “following” us around, songs playing in our head etc. This often happens when we are trying to avoid something – our pain, our truth, our growth – or when we have asked the Universe or our Twin to leave us alone but when the opportunity for spiritual evolution is there.

Eight years into my marriage with another man, I was receiving sign after sign telling me to leave the old – including my marriage – behind and to reconnect with my Twin Flame.  One day as I sat in my car, “Lost Between The Moon And New York City” came on. The lyrics struck me immediately, as did “New York” in the title. Spirit has always used “New York” to give me signs regarding my Twin Flame – after all, it was where we reunited all those years ago. It just immediately makes me think of him. I dismissed the sign – I was not ready to look deeper into why he was still on my mind after over a decade apart. However as I switched channels, “Englishman in New York” immediately followed. I just got that feeling. As I switched again, it happened again, twice. New York everywhere. Spirit now had my attention.

In those moments when that feeling, that realization hits you, just know you are being pulled into alignment. You are being assisted along your path. Tune into your heart channel and listen. Sometimes the message is just a warm wave of love that envelopes you. Your Twin Flame may be thinking about you, listening to that very song. Learn how to receive this love without blocking it .

Sometimes we hear a song and we get that feeling, like our Twin Flame is speaking to us through it. We feel that quickening of the heart, that familiar vibration. Sometimes if we are lucky we may receive confirmation – in one way or another – from our Twin Flame that the song indeed came from them – or at the very least was given to you both by Spirit. Again, it’s hard to know how this actually works, only that God is great

Seal’s 1994 hit “Kiss from a rose” is a love song that’s been around a long time. Seal himself said the song was inspired by a “type of relationship”, however until recently I hadn’t associated the song with Twin flames, or my own journey for that matter. Other than the chorus, I had never really paid attention to the lyrics.

Last year I started hearing “Kiss from a Rose” everywhere. It seemed to be on the radio every time I turned it on. I immediately noticed the lyrics and just got that feeling that my twin was speaking to me through them.

This was during a time that we were getting close again – even though only through online chats. One night he asked me to give each of my children a kiss goodnight from him. I replied “Right back at you”. He replied “Ouch”. He was joking. Then (my heart beats like crazy as I type this lol) he continued: “Your kisses were always special, unlike anyone else’s.. Empowering.. Like a pleasurable pain”.

I almost hyperventilated there and then. It was SO random that I immediately understood why that song had followed me everywhere.

To conclude, seeking peace, connection and Union through music is surely one of the most noble and non-intrusive ways to connect with our Twin flame – and with ourselves. Music is a beautiful way to heal and uplift the soul, and to rise together towards the Spirit. It can even become a method of worship, a prayer; strengthening not only the connection to our Twin flame but also to the higher realms.

I would love to hear your stories – how has your Twin flame used music to communicate with you?

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