I spent my younger years searching for “something” I couldn’t consciously grasp, literally all around the world. This search was part of my childhood games, my wanderlust and restlessness and the feeling of not quite belonging anywhere. It wasn’t until aged 25 that I met the man I refer to here as my “twin flame” that it all finally made sense to me. Yes, I fell in love, or rather, remembered a love that had always been there… I had never been so sure of anything: this person, this stranger, born in another continent and with a different cultural and religious upbringing, was the closest thing to home that I had ever known. Not only did he tear down my walls of separation but blew them right up with Universal dynamite! My search stopped there and then. Not only did I find him, but I also found myself – and this was perhaps the greatest gift of all. I instantly recognized and loved the “me” I saw reflected back in his eyes. Whoever the “I” was that was there within him was the “I” that I was meant to be! This journey into the Self eventually led me to a deeper connection with God and an understanding that our “twin flame” comes to us as a partner of our soul growth for the purpose of helping us discover that divine of seed love within us, setting us on the path of Service back to God.
There is no denying that meeting him forced me onto the spiritual path. Throughout the years, without realizing I was doing it, I took “time out” and avoided my self-work as much as the next person; so much so that it took an NDE and a full blown kundalini awakening to get me to reestablish contact with him. It’s fair to say that I am probably the most “accidental” spiritual person that you will find. I never sought to awaken my kundalini, to reach enlightenment or to find my “Twin flame” or God, yet here I am, and all these things happened because of his physical, spiritual, energetic and ethereal presence in my life. I have no doubt that we met for a greater purpose. Today I am immensely grateful for the blessing of having him in my life and for being able to share some of my experiences and wisdom on this blog.
Many years have now passed since our summer spent together in the most romantic city of the world, yet my love for him has remained unchanged, unwavering, and untouched by the time and distance. As these connections usually go, despite a brief reunion a couple of years later, we did not live “happily ever after”, at least not in the Hollywood true love style ending. Eventually however I matured enough to recognize his energy, reflection and image WITHIN ME; and this in turn brought on the recognition of my own wholeness, as well as of our inner Union. Nowadays, my heart no longer suffers with the “what ifs” but rather celebrates the love that ALREADY IS, in every moment of the eternal NOW. As I grow in peace, serenity and love, I reinvited him back into my life and feel an undeniable pull to him, accompanied by the call to become fully myself and to submit to the divine mandate God placed on my life – and this is the path I am on today.
Please remember as you read my posts that I am not an expert on “twin flames.” More than anything, I use the label so that those looking for answers can find their way to my blog. My understanding of the purpose of this dynamic differs from many in the community and so rather than advance the “theory of Twin flames” on my blog, I wish to share my own experiences which are as real to me as the keyboard that I’m typing on. This blog, more than anything, explains my journey over the 18+ years of a connection which to this day is unlike anything else I’ve ever experienced. As many of my readers have understood, I put myself and my story out there as a testimony of the transformative power of LOVE. This blog is a way for me to express this deepest, most sacred kind of love which flows through me and which connects me not only to the one that I love, but to myself, others and to God. I do not write this blog to tell you what a twin flame is or isn’t, or to enter into debates about whether what I write here is morally, spiritually or religiously correct, or whether my kundalini woke up in the correct way or not! All of the events I write about here, such as meeting my beloved or having my kundalini awakening, are not experiences that I sought to have; nevertheless, they happened, exactly in the way I describe them. They are actual things that I experienced, and this makes what I write here my truth.
My readers have often commented on how I have the gift of expressing the ups and downs of this connection with a lot of clarity, helping others see the deeper spiritual, emotional and energetic dynamics at play. Hopefully as you read my posts you will find some clarity and answers too. More than anything, you should know that you are not alone or crazy and you did not imagine everything. You are loved, and you are supported – so very much, and it is within your gift to find peace within the connection to your “Twin flame”. There is no need for you to remain in pain: this connection is here to transform your life into a purposeful, authentic and happy life, and if you let it work its magic, it will.
For each and every one of you, thank you for taking the time to read my story. I appreciate every single comment, email and message that I receive.
Love and blessings to you on your path! Jonna xx