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For my Twin

You can take all the time you need to navigate our Union with honor.
You can take all the space you need to bring a fresh perspective to our Union.
You can take all the opportunities life presents, in any form, to amass the information essential to spiral-up our Union. [extracts from the blog)

Last summer, as I dabbled between surrender and illumination, I suddenly came into the realisation that I had been the runner all along; something I had blamed him for for YEARS!! Yes, he may have avoided me, however I was the one who erased him from my life totally for 3 years. I hung my head in shame as I realised just how I had failed to see that despite all his fears and choices that took him away from me (I thought), he had always kept showing up for me & us – and he kept doing so. There are no words to describe how sorry I felt, and also, the relief I got from realising that he had forgiven me and that I could forgive myself too.. It was all for a higher purpose, after all..


The Twin Flames journey never ceases to amaze me. The stage I’m in right now I affectionately call ‘the humbling.’ It’s not the first time I’ve been humbled by my Union and I don’t expect it will be the last (but I’m crossing my fingers, toes & eyes anyway).

One of my recent humbling realizations on the Twin Flame journey was that as long as I could point the finger at my Twin for being the runner, I wasn’t able to see my own tendency to run. Me? The runner? NEVER! It was HIM!

runnerThe arrogant, superior, judgmental part of me thought:

If he’d only turn and face me fully, acknowledge the Union, step into our original agreement (or whatever other creative way my mind wanted to make him wrong), then we could rock this adventure.

Blaming him for being the ‘runner’… ugh… so tiresome and so small…

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7 thoughts on “Twin Flames: with one look in the mirror, I saw the true ‘runner’

  1. doucejonna, thank you for sharing your process so transparently. This IS a journey and there’s so much that we don’t understand in the moment. The insights come later, but everything that unfolds and how it unfolds is perfection in the grand scheme. If something isn’t flowing, it isn’t time. We can trust that. I wish you every blessing on this most magickal adventure! All is well.


    1. doucejonna says:

      Dear sparkingEvolution, you are welcome. This past year has been a time of deep truths, huge growth and being reawakened to my connection for both me & my twin flame. I committed myself to being transparent, first with myself, then with my twin – and others from there.. Part of it has been writing this blog because I realised my gift in being able to articulate and clearly explain very complex feelings and spiritual realities (something my twin flame always saw in me); I guess I was also hit with many deep insights about the connection. Thank you for your lovely wishes!! All is well 🙂


      1. Julien says:

        Dear Jonna,
        I want to join the praise train and I’m replying to this specific reply for two reasons:
        -it’s true that you have the gift of “being able to articulate and clearly explain very complex feelings and spiritual realities”
        I wholeheartedly agree with what I’ve read in many comments: in the ocean of Twin Flame information, your texts are a godsend for so many of us as it gives clear insight with so much honesty, light, infinite love and care (and so on and so forth) that it’s really empowering.
        I had already read a few articles, especially the ones on childhood traumas and patterns of abuse that seem to be a recurring theme my tf and I are also embodying, having clearly chosen to live through this to be able to transmute it and usher in the new paradigm of unconditional love 🙂
        Now that I’ve healed more of these karmic wounds, I’m reading some again and they make even more sense ! So I want to send infinite blessings and gratitude your way 🙂

        – and because your comment ends with All is Well, I wanted to share with you this teaching of Matt Kahn, one of my favorite spiritual teachers (whom I’m in no way affiliated with 😉 ) who presents in this video an beautiful acronym using these three words:

        Take Care of Yourself
        Keep Enjoying this Awesome Experience of Life


      2. doucejonna says:

        Thank you Julien for this sweet comment. I am glad my writings are helping contribute to your light and personal growth. Stay blessed ❤️❤️


      3. doucejonna says:

        Ps. I LOVE love love Matt Kahn!!!!!💜


  2. razeena says:

    I just love this your what your doing here is such a blessing for me.I can see myself in your stories.I have always thought my husband is the runner your words just reminded me the time that I have avoided him bcos of the pain he caused me but still loving him the same inside i thought he knows everything about me inside no matter what i do yes he came back again and again to and the when i chase him he runs.your article just touched my heart like you know about everything we go through.This really gave me hope and strength like something guided me here when I was down.Love you and God Bless you!


  3. Bianca says:

    I am currently surrendering for the first time, and how amazing! I immediately feel elevated by letting it all go and letting everything fall into place. I’m currently doing exercises to open up my heart chakra to begin in depth telepathy. We spoke to each other a few times in dreams and in wake but never physically. But I want him to become more comfortable with the connection so that we can start to feel comfortably connected again. I am aware that it won’t be the most fun, but it will be eye opening for both my twin and I.


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